keep smiling

My Dave Obsession

The past view weeks I have been insanely obsessed with listening to Dave Matthews!!! Don’t ask me my favorite song because honesty it changes hourly. Between: Too Much, American Baby, Gaucho, Grey Street, and If Only, my day is ever revolving sets of emotions and contemplations. So moral of why this is happening: I’M GOING TO THE GORGE AND BUYING MY TICKET IN THE MORNING!!!

Secondly I got my letter yesterday that I have been selected to be in an 3 hour interview for nursing school in Oregon!!! This is really a curveball because just at the beginning of this week I changed my major (again) to something different. I am again go to reiterate that life in America has too many choices. How do you know what to do with life????

7a15a75d66f5b5464cc892de3a868e27 Screen Shot 2013-03-21 at 9.59.34 AM


The Options

The future is the big unknown, right? Well, what would you do if it wasn’t so unknown. That is the one question everyone asks themselves and there is always a reply, but never an action taken.

My future (as of right now) has these options open to me. They all seem like fun opportunities and with the next week or two I am going to post a blog about each and every option with pros and cons. Maybe some of you will enjoy it and have advise or input for me, that I would greatly appreciate. But more than likely everybody will ask, why is she posting this, we could care less about some random college and how it might affect her. Sure that is true, but hopefully with writing down all of he facts I will get one step closer to finding what I adventure I want to strive for. So here they are….

1. Antioch University (Fall 2013)-Business and Social Entrepreneurship in Los Angeles 
2.Otis Art College (Fall 2013)-Advertising in Los Angeles
3. EOU- School of Nursing (Fall 2013) in La Grande, Oregon 
4. BSU- School of Nursing (Spring 2014) in Boise, Idaho
5. LMU- Athletic Training (Fall 2012) in Los Angeles with opportunity to get RN or PT schooling 
All of these very interesting and exciting opportunities how does a person just pick one of them?!
I also have aspirations to get into the WMMA (Woman Mixed Martial Arts) world with UFC. I know all the right people and have the drive to do it but currently where I live coaches and gyms are hard to come by. With moving to LA I would be in a better position to accomplish this goal.
I want to make my mark on this world but I just have to figure out the right way to go about that 🙂
21532904440335887_N2fDayAa_c 177962622747240451_RnWQor29_c

The Hype

The hype about growing old… Where does it come from, how do we know what to be, why to be it, and how to be it?…. I think it is more life getting pushed off a cliff and hoping you fly.

With being a sophomore in college I thought I had it all figured out. I was going to be a nurse, help children with illnesses, be a great health care professional and volunteer at medical camps. But when mailing those final pieces of to nursing school admissions offices, something changed. Questions like what if I don’t like being a nurse, what if I suck at being a nurse, what if I hate it in 10 years, started popping up into my mind.

WHAT IF-  Probably two of the scariest, life changing, worst words you can ask yourself when trying to figure out your future. But seriously, who decided that right out of high school a person, kid may I add, is supposed to know what to do with their lives and to pick a major that affects the whole rest of their life, which hopefully will be 50+ years. That one decision can decide where you live, who you are as a person, who you meet, your friends, if you find your soul mate, what you do for fun, how stressful/adventurous your life is, and much much more! So who came up with the brilliant idea that an 18-year-old is capable and mature enough to decide a major factor that shapes the rest of their lives with minimal preparation.

There is the so-called “correct given path”. This path that you are supposed to follow will lead you to your correct life, occupation, family, and wealth, but how do we know we are on the correct path? I think there are multiple paths and all lead to greatness as long as you put your whole heart into it.  How to decide which path to follow is the real question. There are so many options and available opportunities. Life is so long and you don’t what to live with the regret of choosing one path over another, so how do you choose. This is where our culture is flawed. We live for so long but we rush, rush, and rush some more to become an adult but we don’t spend near enough time exploring ourselves and who we are, not who we think we should be. Our culture is so focused on getting that degree as quick as possible, getting into that job, and finding that soul mate but not enough time is spent exploring the world, finding all of our soul mates, and most importantly FINDING YOURSELF. 

So the point of this blog to explore and hopefully find myself and which path fits me best. But I do know that

54676582946192387_1B0b3ush_bwhich ever path I choose I will but my whole heart into it because like my good friend says the time will pass anyways; might as well put it to its best use 😉